Distant Voice

Mom, I hear your distant voice calling from pits of desperation, holding gently, seeking inspiration to quell this inner need of death. Where have you gone? Can you feel the pain and sorrow fighting inside me? Commotion loudly confuses, brings tears, welling up and overflowing, spilling down my cheeks. Mom, missing you terribly today, feeling lonely, wanting to hug you, hear your voice, see the love in your eyes. Why can't I Mom? Not wishing to remain on earth, it hurts so much, I can't go on, life holds my heart as it crushes it's soul. Needing to alleviate the sadness thrust upon me, needing an end to life, wanting to say I love you just one more time. (1: 30 p.m. - 10-2594)