Eternally Alone

Struggling to survive in the most unlikely place and space in time, wandering pathways of yesterday, wondering why the scenery has changed for the worse. Tear-stained eyes, red and swollen from crying, taking me to the farthest reaches of humankind, searching for someone kind and gentle to understand and help know what is going on. There are no opportunities to seek answers here, for every thing has been dumped unceremoniously, leaving me to make of it what I can. Laugher ringing in my ears, heart being wrung like a sponge and yet no tears will come. Pain of a lifetime wrapped in cellophane, on display, but cannot express feelings of worthlessness, because of not deserving any of this. Coiled tightly, ready to spring upon anyone who even talks, recoiling once again from the world and it's people, because not liking being hurt by them. Wrapping self tightly in another cocoon, hiding from other's diversity and making self a home alone. There will be no recriminations, not speaking to another living soul, trust gone from this vocabulary for good. Don't look again on this earth, no longer to be found by anyone in this world after this one is done. A final declaration of freedom to all who wish to know, now gone to a special place to be eternally alone.