Exorbitant Grief

Light befalls these eyes and seeps gently through this heart into it's very soul, strumming heartily, memories of the past. Not wanting to see the images, pushing them away, yet feelings and emotions are touched and an everlasting sadness appears. It constantly betrays me in respite, causing an emptiness which opens ever wider every time. Trying to touch it, but can never reach far enough within, staying clear and protecting me from it's exorbitant grief. Knowing it can be handled better, wanting to eliminate it, striving to rope and bring it closer. Failing every attempt, continually doing my best to rein it in, dealing with it whatever way I can, whatever way is best for me.