Love Not Emanating From Your Heart

When I thought you were mine, life was being lived in a heaven for only we two, now knowing the truth, there's no love emanating from your heart for me. Being hurt to the core of my being, my soul once again being ripped and torn by you, whom I thought cared about me the same way I did you. Wandering this earth alone, feeling nothing, only numb throughout my being, all the wonderful times I thought we were having were only a lie. Turning out to be a bouquet of convenient lies that you spoke to me, thank God nothing more happened between us, keeping my body from being battered, abused and used. By using your lust and pretend love, I learned a difficult lesson, but thank God, I didn't fall for your false words of love but for a short while. Sensing the truth all along, not wanting to believe you'd be so cruel to me, one you said you loved, wanted and would have me. Living now in isolation, not wanting to be near you or even talk to you anymore for life has been made hell for me. Thanks to your lies and false love that you proclaimed to me, even telling your brothers and sisters how much you loved and wanted me with you.