Thinking Won'T Begin

Sitting, waiting, can't think of any reason for being here. What will I say? There are no ideas running wildly about my mind, no thoughts cogitating within, what will I say. Having no clue whatsoever, sitting and writing, hoping for the words to emerge before I enter the office. What are my feelings? Only those of confusion and distraught mentoring of self. A few more minutes and my mind will have to think of what to say or I'll look like a total jerk. That seems to be nothing new, but I will swallow fears and begin anew. What will I say? Still no clues issuing forth. Time is just about up and totally ready, yet without a thought of what to say. Prayer, deep and quick, God please help and guide me for I want very much to say what is on my mind, if I could only think of something. Make it good Lord, make it count. Wanting very much to say what is on my mind, if I could only think of something, I'd be fine. Reorder, rearrange, think, pray, doubts feverishly racing back and forth, please Lord, help me to say something relevant.