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Leaf by leaf through the pages of life Searching for that something amiss Longing for the eluding bliss Through the maze of childhood Into the amazing youth Those puerile tiffs for toffees To the juvenile jarring For pertly sirens And witless wagers From menacing days of mid-age vices To the distressing years Of old age crisis Leaf by leaf through the pages of life All those moments of feast and repartee As well, the times of toil and tribulation Countless are the twists, tales and trauma Slicing through the silence and stalemate At times scaling gaiety and euphoria Often drowning in ennui and misery Life’s longest drama Lost in smokescreen of past at last Unwinding in waves of reverie Pouring dropp by drop The lanes of memory Drenching my senses In shudders of ecstasy Love, have and disgust bubbling out Through the pores of sanity That remained unchanged but entrapped In life-long charade Leading my way to the mystic The strange and unknown Unfelt all these years I dwelled, dredged and drained Leaf by leaf through the pages of life I hurtle back in time Fearing the ominous doom Before HIS reign As marauder of sin Making sure what is lost forever Counting on the remnant boon Whence arises from all that chaff The grain of divine Sprouting from the soil of virtue That grows on nectar of love And survives of holy bliss Heartening me from inside To traverse upright All walls of mundane vanity In faith and fillip Towards sacred eternity Visible are my motives With dawn of reality Tangible are my assets With the onset of clarity I trudge and traipse In trite and but very straight Through the last page Of my hectic life To the destined last day Of culminating strife Leaf by leaf through the pages of life