Even In Failure I Feel So Relieved

Even in failure I feel so relieved! Yes! The mega task- Taken few weeks back Of creating another poetry book Ended in total disaster! It's been almost three years Since I created my first book. An adventure it was in self publishing. Not only it was a very satisfying experience, With the cost so reasonable, I was thrilled To gift my first book to family and friends. It was a milestone achieved in my poetic journey, Which to this day still continues, Albeit with bumps and glitches. The fun of learning and taking up a new challenge Is what I thought I could do again. Specially since blocked inspiration and Lost creativity is what has been plaguing me. Not writing any thing has been like Not visiting my inner most chambers. Like missing a special friend Who refuses to meet me again. Holding and displaying another one Of my own book, while waiting For the muse to bestow her grace, Made the idea so very appealing, That I didn't mind the hard work Of doing it with out a guided software. I was even pleasantly surprised to discover The level of concentration that kept me going. Many weeks of reading instructions, Learning the forgotten use of margins, Gutters, and indentations, Editing and formatting old poems and Copying and pasting to create a PDF file, All kept me so involved That even the crisp, bright sunshine Of gorgeous November weather Couldn't snatch me away from computer. Finally the book was submitted for auto review. But the appearance was not to my satisfaction. There were issues needed to be resolved. Auto formatting was a miss match for content. Correcting mistakes created even a bigger mess. The whole project now looks a total disaster! Tired and weary I realized That if I want a new book Either I have to take some help Or start all over again. Which ever route I take, for time being My book project is on the hold! For now I am relishing this feeling of liberation! A weight lifted from my shoulders! Even failure has its own rewards! It brought me back at my writing again!