And All The Negative Thought About Everything

All the loneliness inside And all the disappointments and defeats And all the rejection and failure and fear And all the sense of my own nothingness and failure And all the negative thought about everything And all the sense that all is lost And going from bad to worse and worse And all of this ‘no' which I have within me now Are resisted in me by something I do not understand A voice and power for going on Without knowing exactly how or why And here I am Going on and on again And not really understanding How I manage Despite all this To force myself to maintain A slim hope that in writing these words I am still doing something.