How Can I Knowing Myself Inside

How can I Knowing myself inside Knowing my lust and envy and fear and distrust Knowing my weakneses, How can I expect of G-d To keep alive forever The problematic being I am? I idealize those I love And do not try to know them As I know myself – They too being human Are also not perfectly worthy They too being human Know sin within themselves- And yet I try I pray I would not abandon those I love- I ask God why to let die Those who have such beauty and goodness Those each one of which is a unique person- I try – Knowing God has not promised To keep each of us alive forever – I try – Asking G-d to do what G-d has never promised – And who am I And what am I To dare to ask?