I Pause Before Beginning To Work

I take a deep breath I am reluctant to begin It is always difficult to begin But once its done One wonders why the difficulty- I am delaying again I am a delayer by nature I want to put the hard things the duty off I am still pausing Pausing as I write I must reread and correct work I have already done Will I do this really Or skip over the hard part And do it quite poorly As I so often do? I am an imprecise delayer And an almost total failure in my practical life- I am delaying still- How strange that I when I began to write this I felt so happy and so hopeful- Now I know I must not delay too much longer And the sunny bright day outside has turned to grey before my window And I pause again and think and pause again And wait until I finish this And move to do what I should have done hours ago And will do too late and too quickly and too poorly As I am-