I Was Suddenly Happy

SUDDENLY I WAS HAPPY Suddenly I was happy I looked back and knew I had done much with my life When I leave the world There will be a family Still going on There will still be Israel There will be my books And countless things I have written There for the world I will have written and remembered with love Those I deeply cared about I will have done something Maybe even fair to say ‘More than most’ But when I leave the world I will no longer be And perhaps too no longer have Any memory of all this I will not be Forever not be- perhaps Unless God has decided otherwise And why should I be happy about my own disappearance? With all I have done I still will not be Probably- forever Now why should I be happy about that?