What Will I Do With All The Time Left?

It is difficult to live with my own failure As a writer Perhaps it is especially difficult now For what hope can I have? I am old I have written so much No one really cares for it Can I expect I will now, At the age of seventy-eight plus Be able to write something different From what I have written before? A vague anxiety a kind of depression Are my feeling now What will I do with all the time left If I can no longer fill the time with writing Which has been the help and the hope of my life? I suppose I know the answer I will continue to write Trying to believe that it somehow means something