A Depressed Hypocrite's Monologue

There's no offence taken when people tell us that we are nuts... No offence when we are told that we only lack guts to go out more.. Fight with our problems.. We are on the pill we are going downhill What is it after all? ? It's just depression Everyone's depressed... Everyone's depressed when their favourite character in a daily soap dies.. Everyone's depressed when their barber cuts their hair wrong.. We are just drama queens.. We like to be different It's en vogue Insomnia's a way of saying how cool we are Cutting ourselves is a way of saying we are rebels "How are you depressed? ", says one, "you are not even dressed like Emos" Hell, I don't even have tattoos or got piercings or most importantly I don't look ill "You run for five kilometres everyday" "I heard you weigh more than seventy killos" Damn it! ! I am so strong... I stand with a straight posture... Where's the illness about me? ? "I heard you are educated" Ya, Having read Shakespeare means I cannot be mentally ill Even though I've been on the pill What's wrong with me then? ? In a summer's honey day I show stamina I stand with a straight posture I run... "It's just a frickin excuse for you" Hell ya! ! I make an excuse to save myself from working... Sleepless nights, Suicidal tendencies... A pain within my heart.. All just an excuse... "It's because you smoke so much Nicotine screws up the brain" Yeah.. Addictions, substance abuse is the cause of this... "Are you sure you never did something immoral? " Insinuations What have I done? ? ? Oh yes, I was abused by a man That must mean that I am gay I am just a f***ot That's my problem.. Or maybe, "It's because you don't believe in God" What? ! ! The all compassionate, all merciful God is angry? ? ? And thus punishes me like sinners in inferno? ? *** Screw it! Do I need to justify this to you? ? Do I need to tell you why I shouldn't be ashamed that I visit a psychiatrist once in every three months? ? Do I, with all my insecurities and pain let you all aggrevate it further by letting you call me a weirdo and then ... Then pay heed to your ignorance? ? *** Yeah, some of you, I thought, were my friends... Some, I thought were ones who cared... Maybe if I were dying of some illness that would have made me look ill You would have cared? ? Maybe you would have had pity on me.. After all, what does a dying man need but pity and sympathy? ? *** I am a hypocrite I know.. But you guys are worse... I never run away from my hypocrisy, never judge... Who are you or me to judge? ? Do I judge your life? ? Do I show fake pity for you? ? If I do so would that make me more human? ? *** We are all pathetic, And I am done justifying these things to you.. I care not about what you think, But if you ever feel low, Down, and in trouble Do you think I will run away? ? No, I will stand up for you.. I will treat you like a human being A fellow hypocrite in need of love and compassion... Screw your concern.. Screw your bigotry Screw your stigmatising me I will give zero ****s about that.. Absolutely zero.. But if you need help and feel you are distressed then I will still care I will share your pains But never tell you "You are just overacting mate" "It's nothing of a big deal" 'Cause dear fellow humans, my friends by default I am a hypocrite, but not the one who shows pity not the one who looks down upon others Just the one who knows all pains are real.. And a little help is crucial Souren Mondal April 25,2016