Cold Turkey

I woke up next morning crimping Distraught and dejected Body aching everywhere I got no zest left No energy left Flattened and need to be grounded In bed Could not make it to the washroom To release There’s nothing to release My whole system is halted Immortalized I felt chilled inside But heated up on the outside Like soaking your body Into a boiling oil I need a constant fan And keep conditioning At the same time need to bare body Or the clothing will get wet Due to constant sweating No appetite to drink No appetite to eat No more cheers No more laughter No more self-confidence No more easy going No more friendly I’m slumped and dumped Numbed and clumped My head becomes dull and heavy Like a big rock is pouncing on it I got to continue sleeping To avoid the living hell I managed to force myself to sleep For the whole day After the withdrawals Leaping into a new dimension This time my stomach is cramped With massive pains My joints are aching penetrative To inner bones I was shivered Covered with blanket Couldn’t last long I felt like I was on fire with that thick linen I got to be strong to go through I got to do this for my mom She had suffered long enough To count the numbers Of my occupations of prisons And rehab centers For one reason That was Heroin The next day After a long constipation Diarrhea paid me a visit My bed was full of shits Couldn’t make it on time It’s keep coming gradually My mind was rebelling If I have to kill someone Or to rob someone I will do it To get the stuff right now Looking at mom After all this while she was trying hardly To get me cured and cleaned Made me revoked the ideas I have to be brave and strong Freeing me from disastrous life Which I thought a Heavenly life Not for long when Hell laid his hands on you You have to run for your lives Or someone will found you death On the third day of torture I started sneezing rapidly Vomiting every time after the insertion Of foods or drinks I was left with skin and bone A living skeleton My eyes were dried and sunken My mind goes blank I hated myself I hated the whole world On the night of the 3rd day Brother and mom carried me to the bathroom I was thrown into a tub full of ices For almost half an hour I was in the freezing ocean But not drowned I survived the ordeal Thanks to my loving family Who loved me for what I am On the 5th day of withdrawal Things started to normalize Mentally and physically I felt stronger And better For mom I will be clean I’ll be your hero I’ll not fall again to bloody heroin Let bygone be bygone Let it gone with the wind I will win