Two Days

I so selfishly wanted to wallow in the aggravating disappointment Of yet, another, unseen setback... But what would that accomplish Other than another slap in the face reminder That I, alone, am not holding the reins to my put-on-hold' life or so it seems... I want to raise the covers over my head After letting my dog lick the tears that fall, from my ' always an optimist' eyes without any human's notice..and cry Til I've no choice, but to close my swollen eyes And sleep well after the alarm clock' s revelry... But then, I remember I promised myself, In a time, not long ago, of despairing doubt, Two days, the allotted time, of feeling left out Broken winged, and breathlessly bargaining, Two days, downed and drowning in concussion, And then I would rally what resources I've stored.. To once more, make sense of the senseless...