My Fractured Identity

After years of aimless wanderings Leaving behind the cities of midnight revels And the fevered journey in metro rails, I am back at the land of my people. My land, I had carried Wherever I went, Under which ever roof I slept As a jewel in a casket And ensured it rested safe Ever under my pillow Moving with aliens Unable to merge with their cultural mores I saw my land glimmer in darkness Like dew drop on a moon blanched leaf When I sweated in the blistering sands That patch of green landscape, like an oasis Wafted me in a cool embrace Then dreams poured in like star light And I wandered in the meadows of my youthful love My heart struggling to forget old longings And memories lashing upon me like tidal waves Pursued by an inalienable shadow Suddenly being born in flesh and blood I hastened to the streets of my youth With hopes galore and plans vivid But alas! There is none to recognize me Oh! I am a stranger here An unwelcome stranger among total strangers Now I wonder which really is my land The one left behind or the one just landed in Oscillating between these two worlds My fractured identity looms large With worms of memories wriggling in my flesh And a myth dying in my brain