Thank You, Appa..

If I can rewind the time only for a second, If I can go back to the deleted past only for a second, If I can drift to the nook before you became the ash, If I can edit all those letters, sent to you since I was five, If I can rewrite our story line only for a second, If I can have the wand to have you for a second, If I can price open the heaven’s threshold only for a second, I can say these words with teary flowers, When your silence was taken as the contentment, When your quiet composure was mistaken as a rock, When your gazing eyes failed to meet our selfish eyes, I never realized that you needed my words of gratitude, How your weak heart could have beaten faster, To make you ill, every time I arrived and left, Not hearing a word of gratitude and assurance, Appa, that second will not arrive to thank you in person. Many father's day passed without buying a card for you, which I used to do when you were alive as my dad, You had called me a good girl but I have this thorn, Have I ever thanked you the way I perceive the life now?