A Mortal's Realizations

some thoughts are buzzing in my head... they wont simply go away.. nothing seems real... i am floating in the midst of surreal and all possibilities seems fade away...... very terrible, unfair and painful it is... it cant be real...........was the thought that came repeatedly to me.... must be a dream i thought? but it seems it is not...... a shock wave ran through me... the moment i realized it is really happening to me? the realization of present erased all my shocks and doubts. and pain is something that is all left with me? all that i could do is to wish to change not for ever but just for a moment again. the distressful moment is ever growing and pushing into the gutter of pain tears are shed and prayers are made but all seems to go in vain... the world goes on and it wont stop it never did nor it can.... time stops for none... clouds can never abolish the sun...