Back To Square One

It is hard for me to be back to square one I know that I am carrying this havy burden for a long time It is hard for me to be back to square one Because every time something happens to my life I have to be back to square one Starting over my life is hard Planning my life is hard And get back to my life the way it was I don't know why I am so hard on myself? I don't know why I keep punishing myself? I think that is because I am so stubborn That I keep doing it over and over again Don't I get hurt with that? Yes I do get hurt with that I can't understand why I hurt myself so much It is hard for me to go back to square one So many bad things happened this month That I am angry with myself Why did I let this Happened? That is because I didn't see it coming my way Why didn't I see it coming my way? I guess I couldn't see the warnings coming I can say to myself that this time there was no warnings How will my life be now? It will get better? It can't get any worst than it is It only has to get better again I am the one that have to work hard to make it better I want to live my life to the fullest And do the best I can I am so ashamed of the things I've done It thorns my heart to pieces And it destroys my life completely Jail is not a place for me I don't want to see that place any more I am working hard to stay out of there I suffered so much this month I hope that I don't have to suffer any more I want a litte bit of peace I want some hugs I want someone that I can talk with Back to square one Back to square one Back to square one Back to square one