** My Small Little Secret **

As you lay on my lap, I awoke one night Trying to stop the juggernaut of dreams Sweet as u lay, on my lap like cream In those dreadful dreams, tinged with the rainbows of my love Soaked with saline tears That fell like snow pearls Crimson and red, my eyes betrayed Yes its you, its you, its you alone they said In, and around a mulberry bush Playing as you say----a game of truth When you became that liar, to win my heart You became alone, you left me with no choice When I said “I dont love you” But you knew how When the sound of your voice Was like summer pools Upon my hot brow My thoughts your provocations Didn’t they reveal my small little secret May God only think of rise in you, That glitter of hope, dispel the memories so blue, Why hide myself, for no rhyme or reason When hinged my soul for you, without treason Give all your tears, your pain, your sadness To me---- for its you, its you, its you alone In, an around that mulberry bush, Playing as you say -----, a game of my mind Nay not my slave, but master of my soul When I opened that door of my heart sacrosanct Didn’t that reveal my small little secret. Your soul breathing, in my love called ocean Scampering too and fro, on the sands of devotion Where would it hide, on the rocky floor of passion Enchanted and growing, each hour, each minute, each second’s longing More like torture, a torch set in action Then its you, its you, its you alone In, and around that mulberry bush Playing as you say------my game of the heart Not as shadow of my soul, bending on knees But a knight in shining armour, sporting crimson on his wrist Didn’t that reveal my small little secret. In my name, you will find the mirth of the gods The offering to the heavens, the jelly, on platters with flowers, My clouds you detoured by raining of love But my blood you spattered with, daggers of lies still, you its you, its you, its you alone In, and around that mulberry bush Playing as you say-------my game of the soul To be that orchid amongst the crowd of dandelions that sun, a ray of hope which wont be Shadowed by clouds of despairs Or the waves of ocean of doubt Didn’t that reveal my small little secret Why should I say it hardly mattered When in reality, I was shattered I fretted, I trembled, I weeped And yet like a saint, at night, I sleeped My hands folded on my breast Like a seraph in the realms of rest And in those twilight dreams Like waves that lie still and gleams I miss you so much, it seems In and around that mulberry bush Playing as u say---------a game of honour To be that glow worm golden In a dell of dews scattering rainbows beholden DOES THIS NOW REVEAL MY SMALL LITTLE SECRET Anjali 10-06-2009