Frightened

Everyone gets frightened at some point in their lives. My greatest fear may sound strange to anyone here. I get frightened of my popularity, don’t think I don’t enjoy it because I do that is a fact. I get a twinge of guilt when I see someone who just cannot succeed. I know only too well the sorrow they go through. My friend JoAnn told me her inspiration was on the wane. To help her out I suggested we write some together. I mention the idea to our friend Meggie. She asked if she could join us, I said yes of course. Now I’ve got more popular it frightens me even more. I’ve taken to self-mocking to try and lower people’s opinion of me. The problem is now they dispute it all the time. I think one of the reasons why I get frightened is all my life I’ve been at the back of the class and now I’m near the front row and that’s the scary bit. I may joke about it, but it’s no joke to me. Getting more and more popular scares the hell out of me. 1 February 2008