Is It Fair

I was in rage and unable to control He is the only son and not responding call Totally ignorant about studies and failure I am worried about his studies and future This kind of event is rare in any household Where wife leaves home to be free from fold Not because of any differences but of poverty How come one man can bear such pain and feel pity? I work hard day time to look after children I feel sad and lonely when look at them even They are without proper care and attention All likely factors to spoil the kids without any mention I felt so bad when learnt about bad company Son was acting careless and moving with many Irresponsible friends and neglecting school He was now spoiled character and fool 'Dear son' we got to move with rest of the people Stay calm with studies and not to invite any trouble He may stare at me and pay no attention to what I intended As if he was broken with mom's departure and offended With all my daily advice, he was broken into pieces Life was abnormal for him and not at ease He decided to end life abruptly one day Closed the door and preferred poison in foolish way We were not in knowledge and very much concerned Whole of house smelt bad odor and belief strengthened He had committed suicide and landed us all in trouble This was tragic end for all of us who had so much to struggle I am taken to cell for five years imprisonment For making no move to improve upon with severe comment I am charged with heavy harassment to boy What else could have been done by me than to annoy? How much father can expect from promising children? They are like garden flowers and ascended from heaven I love and could struggle more for their welfare God! I have nothing to repent but is it still fair?