132. Ian

You’ve been there for me such a long time I count you as a near constant companion sometimes a friend sometimes a foe but even so you’ve often been there when I needed and how many friends manage that in a lifetime You’re nearly always there with something to say an opinion on something or someone we’ve seen often enough it's a caution or warning about them and even though I may not like the words you speak I'll listen carefully and try to take heed because you’re honest to the point of rudeness all the time and at least you’ll admit it when you’re wrong I can remember the first words you said to me must have only been 12 or 13 at the time “Stop now you fool, you going to be killed” you scared the blaze out of me when you first spoke even more than when the truck thundered past missing me by mere inches After a few times of saving me you introduced yourself properly becoming like a guardian angel overnight always wanting me to learn from your mistakes never explaining to me how you died always needing me to avoid similar fates How many times have you tried to pick me up attempted to lift my spirits when I’m down stopping me when i get too angry or depressed always trying to convert it into something I can use even now I am still not sure why you do it when you know I can never do the same for you Every time I’d ask you why you choose me to watch over you’d always repeat the same thing “We let you fall so you can get up again help you learn so don't mess up too much never want to see you slip up badly break bones or sink want you to live your life free we need you to exist to make everyone think” All I can say in response is this for the times you saved my life from cars trees and dangerous people out there for all the warnings and comments you made both when you were correct or wrong I really appreciate all that you’ve done for me and look forward when the time comes to shaking you warmly by the hand and thanking you in person