In My Sorrow

My tears left me dry My heart a desolate place Emptiness moved through my veins I felt helplessly alone My strength gone My mind shattered My heart squashed I was a ghost inside my house Nothingness surrounded me I was totally empty of myself Life was meaningless My hope vanished My spirit dejected For a brief moment I was inside the house of Silence And I was hospitalized by the spirit Every ounce of my body was pounded And every thought frozen I was numb inside For a brief moment I was free I was in the land of peace A long distance away from home My life a distant memory Then I came back My ego rushed in My thoughts melted And flooded my mind I was drowning in my own misery Now I was truly helpless My heart was an empty shell My mind was a house of pain And I was a victim of my own thoughts (ego) I spent many sleepless nights inside my head Held hostage by my own thoughts The punishment was brutal As I was pounded with questions Why? Why? Why me? There were no answers Only pain My tears were my only comfort As I battled with myself Alone under the blanket of sorrow