Defeat

Life chewed up my dreams, and then spit them out, My passion quelled, overcome by doubt, Hope and joy have vanished from my world; Now I walk with arms outstretched to the sky, Not in prayer..... Fate's prisoner am I, See? my flag of surrender's unfurled! The fight is over, it's not worth the pain, A futile clash, nothing did I gain, My defeat was met with taunting jeers; What matters the season, flowers come and go, The rivers freeze, then the rivers flow, All that remains unchanged are these tears Into this cruel world I was born crying, To find love, I spent my life trying, Now let me say a word to the wise: Don't waste your time on holy hymns and prayers, You may survive life's quicksand and snares, But God has closed the gates to Paradise! As I walk down the crumbling steps of Time, I wonder what follows the twelfth chime, Are there any prizes left to win? With my last breath should I beg God's pardon? Might he then bid me enter His Garden? Or, like a bug, spike me with a pin? No! I won't spend remaining days in fear, I won't implore a God that can't hear, No longer on Defeat will I dwell; I'll keep building my castles in the air, I'll steal a bit of love here and there, As for Defeat..... it can go to hell!