Life Ride: Some Thoughts About?

My life moves, and I am along for the ride. A ride........ I don’t want to be on. It has all the things I am frightened of. I want to get off. I can’t though. I am stuck. The buckle is holding me back from jumping out. I can’t take it. I am going to bust. It’s not worth it. I don’t care. It’s going too fast. Why did I get pressured into this? This wasn’t the ride I wanted to go on. This wasn’t the ride for me. I was stupid. I want off. I can’t take this. I need to get off this ride. I don’t know what going to happen next. I am out of my comfort zone. One dip comes after the other, all downward. I shouldn’t have gotten on. The ride is ending. The constraint is lifted. I give a fake smile. Just like I always do. I never wanted to be on this ride. My life.