A Mother's Love?

How can a mother not hurt when her child cries out in pain? How can she turn and look away when there's so much to be gained? If only her heart would open and let God show the way, to happiness and love everlasting. For this, I'll always pray. Is it possible to just feel nothing towards the child you gave away? Please say there is at least a hope that you will love me again some day. When I look at my child I feel love. I could never turn my back. But you never felt that way towards me. Is it something that I lack?