Inside She's Dying

Listen to her laughter as she tells another one of her hilarious anecdotes on life (where she normally makes herself the punchline) We can't help but laugh.... she's so funny! Watch her eyes shine with the excitement of knowing we're actually ''buying it''. She really thinks she's fooling us. See her bite her lip as she tries to hold back the tears. (If they fall... she'll just laugh through them and it'll appear she laughed so hard she cried.) I see the fear she hides deep inside as it casts a shadow over her eyes and turns the bright blue just a shade darker than they should be. I hear how her voice cracks when she makes a joke about herself. I feel her pain as she looks across the room at the door like a hungry child spotting a jelly-filled doughnut sitting on the table... just out of reach. Inside she's dying.