I Weigh Out The Hanging Silence

I weigh out the hanging silence: An anchor suspended above an abyss In abeyance, I look for any light's kiss- I never wanted to do it like this, Along deserted beaches and paths Trailing the breakwater's mist. Under the dark ceiling'd cliff; No stanchion waits; no lea, no skiff To no sail do I lift my arms, To coast along the wave's bony rift: Infinity's the only direction you fall, Once you've been cast adrift. You were main mooring, My steadfast buoy But I had to cut loose all your carefree joy You bounced around; a bobbing toy In the baleful eye of the hurricane, An innocent: you could never be coy. I followed it's burning eye like a lamp; It couldn't harm me, the rain and damp But in my soul was placed it's stamp: When crashing waves took out the ramp, No one noticed the bloodied water- Or the life I too soon would recant. Now I sail around the edge of it's velocity A scuttled wreck, in an unsettled sea Hear the far bells toil, to decree There'll be no survivors, this calamity- Don't be there when I come round again: Don't want you to founder for eternity.