I Survived

Did you want to see me broken Then at my condition people would stare, And they would say that I fell into ruins Just because, you were not there. Maybe if I were poor and bankrupt And I had not achieved and thrived, But, look at me I have now achieved greatness And, I have survived. My house like me is sturdy No longer do I owe or am I in debt, I feel rich and I buy whatever that I want And I have no more worries, or regret. One time which was not so many years ago I felt so lonesome and deprived, You cheated on me and then stole from me But look at me now, I have survived. You believed that without you in my life That I would not or could not exist, You wanted to laugh at me when I fell You wanted to give me a razor, for my wrist. I think of those days of my yesteryear When in my life you had first arrived, I gave up all that I had for my love for you I had nothing left, but I still survived. No longer do I need to condition myself For your drunken and verbal attack, Or no need for me to keep both eyes on you So, that I won't get knifed in my back I read and I saw your debauchery From experiences my belief was derived, I then found religion and forgiveness So, I fought and I survived. I thought once that you were truly a gift to me So, you used me whenever that you could, I went to bed nightly and I couldn't sleep You were the nightmare, from my childhood. No longer am I worried or have a headache From my pain and my suffering I was revived, Without the use of pills or lecturing I healed, and I survived. I will never travel that road again That had once led me tragically to you, I now care to much for my soul, my dignity and my being Dreams and hopes, I now pursue. I am the traveler, the explorer and the soldier When obstacles towards me are now contrived, I now proudly look at myself in the mirror My soul and my pride I won, I survived. Randy L. McClave