If I Were Engaged

If I were engaged I would feel outraged, If all feelings were staged And if I were caged. Never having my needs or wants or cares While they are keeping theirs, Only finding loss and needing repairs Begging for help only in prayers. If I thought that I was being used Only to be tricked and abused, Staying mixed up and confused And all my desires being refused. If seemingly for them I only live Learning to become adaptive, And always feeling and being combative While being held emotionally their captive. Thinking as I have aged A war again will never be waged, And if for wants in my life I raged I would not be engaged. Randy L. McClave