You Made It To Inspire

I buried my pain beneath a smile that wasn't mine Instead of smiling, I should had been crying, Then and only then I wanted to finally make a break Then I wanted my true feelings to escape. The smile that I was wearing wasn't mine to wear Because the people around me didn't really care They lied and used and cheated as though all for fun That smile that I was wearing, was just a pun. I wanted to laugh in those eyes that had used me I also wanted to smile in those eyes who thought I didn't see, And I wanted to stare in those eyes who thought that I was blind And I wanted to grin at those eyes which were never kind. I instead fought off my own self destruction As I thought only I could cause myself pain and self corruption, I would not give anyone the pleasure of killing my self-love My feelings and my beliefs, I would not ever dispose of. I have my own feelings and thoughts and emotions and sight I refuse to go down without even a fight, As a child I never imagined I'd have to fight my way through life And I never dreamed that I would become a survivor of untold strife. As a child and as an adult I also survived many untold horrors It was given to me as candy is given to children in stores, So, if you ever find me in a field of fire Take me home, brush me off, and say to me, "you made it to inspire". Randy L. McClave