The Pain

The pain is real The pain is deep Relief is all I ever seek I wake up nights Drenched in sweat Peaceful dreams I never get The nightmares take control I don't know how much more I'll be able to take I wish my demons would go out the door But they never leave me They live inside my soul I feel they'll forever stay Even as I grow old Maybe an exorcism Can help to get me through Other then that I don't know what to do You see all my problems Are from when I was a child It was a nasty neighbor Who took away my smile So many times I see his face Just before he dies I hear him plead I can hear his cries But I turn a deaf ear Just like he did to me Seeing him in pain Sets a part of me free I watch him die slowly Like I've been doing for years That's why you see I'm not moved by his tears I never wished death on anyone But on him I do I know you maybe understand If it's never happened to you I know people say, forgive and forget But that's something I can't do Why does it seem to always be People that you trust The way I feel inside Like I've just been hit by a bus I hope someday to be better But I don't know when that will be But right right I know When I look in the mirror Many times I don't like what I see 1-13-10/RJH The pain is real The pain is deep Relief is all I ever seek I wake up nights Drenched in sweat Peacefull dreams I never get The nightmares take control I don't know how much more I'll be able to take I wish my demons would go out the door But they never leave me They live inside my soul I feel they'll forever stay Even as I grow old Maybe an exorcism Can help get me through Other then that I don't know what to do You see all my problems Stem from when I was child It was a neighbor Who took away my smile So many times I see his face Just before he dies I hear him plead I can hear his cries But I turn a deaf ear Just like he did to me Seeing him in pain Sets a part of me free I watch him die slowly Like I've been doing for years That's why you see I'm not moved by his tears I never wished death on anyone But on him I do I know you don't understand If it's never happened to you Why does it seem to always be People that you trust The way I feel inside Like I've just been hit by a bus I hope someday to be better But I don't know when that will be But right right I know When I look in the mirror Many times I don't like what I see 1-13-10/RJH