Thoughts Wanting To Be Saved

Thoughts running around, wanting to be saved through- out eternity in my mind, not realizing that I won't be here forever. Insisting that I write them down so they can at least live forever on pages of many books to be shared with the entire world. Looking into myself, wondering if I need someone to save me from myself, as I'm going under and I don't care to come up again. Drowning in a life that I don't want to really live here on earth, preferring to enter heaven and be done with all this suffering once and for all.