I Cannot Escape My Own Contradictions

I CANNOT ESCAPE MY OWN CONTRADICTIONS I cannot escape my own contradictions- Night and day feelings war in me I do not know how and where I am With all these pains and sorrows griefs and joys and ecstasies- And too the mild small happy and unhappy perceptions- I climb a mountain and fall down at the same time Life puts me under the ground and skyhigh with my dreams In conflicting seconds- Why am I so much of what I don’t know I am? And how is this different from what we all are when we are true to our own minds and hearts And all they are and are not?