Remains

I could say I wasn't myself When I let you suffer For years I stood outside the world Looking in, like a penniless child At a toy shop window As if life was happening at a remote To people called me and you I would like to take petrol into the past Pour it over every miserable memory Stuff a gag into every thoughtless Word that caused you pain And torch it all Now, I stand outside your world of earth Looking down on your roof of grass Like an animal drawn to a waterhole I return again and again to your remains