What You Get When Life Is Hollow

WHAT YOU GET WHEN LIFE IS HOLLOW mother's biography I meet myself in the index ...daughter of 110,112 I reach into my mother's head letters reveal my dad before he was my dad my mother's diary intimate details about dad when he was just the other man the man to be my dad she leads him on to my being...born I know my conception from the inside out each intense intimacy the kisses...the caresses that go into the making of me I feel like I steal myself letter by letter I attend my own birth finally I arrive I dog-ear the diary here I fall asleep a movie flickers my only reel memory of the she...she used to be my mother & her friends all so original I only an ordinary daughter words words catch me as I fall through time I grow up through page after page emerge in Chapter 21 as 21 letters & diaries reveal me to myself as my self I wander about the many rooms of my mother's mind finally I find a self I can own a me I can be