A Life Of Longing

My days are tormented by longing, So many dreams life did not fulfill; Longing for the love that never came, (Yet the gallant heart is hopeful still) I'm longing to foresee the future, Just how long will my loneliness last? Old memories offer no comfort, So I'm longing to forget the past I'm longing to know if God exists, In my mind it still remains unclear; Who shall I praise for nature's beauty? Witnessing its wrath, whom shall I fear? Few praise God in all circumstances, The faithful pay homage without doubt; But I'm perplexed by the suffering Born of disease, war, famine, and drought I'm torn between loving and hating A God who cannot seem to decide If wrath or mercy is deserving.... So both arrive, with hope on the side I'm weary of this life of longing, I seek my refuge in solitude; Abandoning unanswered questions, I ascend to spheres of quietude But end of day finds my heart longing That just one of life's schemes be revealed; Fearing the reply, still it inquires: Will love be mine? Or has my fate been sealed!