Shattering Mirrors

looking in the mirror its no longer me just a broken lifeless shell is all i see wearing the makeup and the right clothes the fake smile, it all puts on a show behind the mask lays scars and bruises so much hurt tucked away, kept hidden the brokenness that cuts painfully deep i see the words you scornfully screamed and how slicing in deep they do sink they steal anything good that's left in me within my reflection i despise every part the mask claiming everything's alright when inside everything is torn apart looking in the mirror i see my struggles how i try so hard to be so much better your perfect mold i always try to please to the point of dying just to be so thin though never good enough i am again, looking in this mirror i hate every piece my eyes stare back always criticizing revealing every ugly hidden memory forcing a smile again to keep such an act though i am tired of this masked charade broken down, i am unsure of another day shattering the mirror into many pieces is this really me? i'm aching for clarity looking into the mirror's broken shards i see so clearly its perfectly reflecting this shattered image of mine i truly see and i wonder if forever broken i will be