Silent- I Remain

i was approached today by someone so kind and caring she said, 'you have such sadness, I see it in your eyes, is everything ok? ' i looked at her so very longingly- every part of my being was aching, pleading with myself to say 'no! , please, can You help me? '. -i couldn't - silent instead i remained it was fear keeping it locked in so tight. just a quick 'i'm fine' and walked away. reaching home, You greeted me, with Your growling voice 'You're Late! ' temper flaring, You tightly grabbed me Your punishing fist met my face knocking me to the hard ground You snapped with no remorse 'get up, I'm not done with you yet'. regaining myself on shaking feet i quickly apologize 'I'm sorry' Your temper raging on like hot fire pleading, bargaining, promising i will try so much harder to be better thinking only to myself- why do You do this? even more so- what did i do to deserve it? finally completing what You started i'm laying ashamed and broken before You walk away, in that ever so threatening way You demand, 'not a single word'. silent- i Must remain scared- head nodding in agreement. 'i know, i'm fine'. alone and trembling, not giving into tears recalling the Lady so caring, wondering, if i had missed my chance for life. the sting in my heart digs deeper soon understanding so clearly, if this is how it carries on... i will be resting in a quieter place, forever -silent- i will remain.