I'M The Man

When I was a kid and skinned my knees They said 'Man up son! ' When I was a grown boy and had to give up My toys, They said 'Man up son! ' When I was in my teens, Shy, reluctant, weak, dark skinned with pimples, didn't speak much, didn't speak less, They said 'Man up son! ' When I cried, I wasn't a man, When I cared too much, showed affection, I was weak, When I didn't give a damn I was too reckless. And then I fell in love, One day she came, the other day she went 'Take it like a man', even she said. And I cried in the dark room, Soft tears upon the warm pillow, Memories, regrets, wishes and a façade, ........................................................................ ........................................................................ ......................................................................... ......................................................................... Yes, I am a man... I misunderstood her. When she came back and asked for my friendship, I misunderstood her, When she wanted someone to speak with, When she wanted someone to stand by her, When all she wanted was someone to listen to her, Someone to feel her pain. I did misunderstand her. And Yes, I am a man, One who receives phone calls at two in the night, One, who speaks softly and assures and reassures. One, who holds back his tears when his heart breaks down in a nuclear fusion with every nanosecond making the heat unbearable, The destruction inevitable... Yes, I am that man, holding back tears from my eyes so long that they dry up like a desert deserted by even the eagles and the cactus, Yes, I am that man, Vain, irresponsible, chainsmoking alcoholic bastard I am that man, broken, torn, reduced to dust and sand, I am the foul-mouthed, filthy, stinky impotent, I am the dæmon, I am the fiend, I am the crossbread between an imp and the imposter, Emotions camouflaged, Two-faced rascal... But I am not the man who can feel nothing, no, no.. I am not that man who never feels pain 'cause he's too strong, No... .......................................... I'm not that man, Neither will I ever be